Saturday, January 16, 2010

Your Hands- J.J. Heller

...if you are searching for answers,
...if your heart is in pieces,
...if your faith is hanging by a thread,
...if you just need reassurance,
...if you fear what tomorrow may bring,

...these words are for you.

"God is our refuge and strength,
an ever-present help in trouble."

Psalm 46:1, NIV

Wednesday, January 13, 2010


Sorry I haven't posted in a while. My brain has been more
than a little fuzzy just thinking and
pondering over the past few days.

Isn't that little bird the so cheerful?
My sister made him for me when we went to Michigan
this past weekend. He sits in my kitchen window and
reminds me how much we are loved.

About a month into our pregnancy nearly every time I would get into the car
I would hear "How He Loves" by David Crowder.
I half joked with Brian, a little bit nervously, that I wondered if
God was trying to prepare us for something.
Deeply and secretly hoping we wouldn't lose this baby too.

All the while, God was whispering....
I love you... it's going to be tough.
... I love you.... I love you...
Trust me... I love you!

Here are the lyrics:

He is jealous for me.
Loves like a hurricane, I am a tree.
Bending beneath the weight and wind of His mercy.

When all of a sudden
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory
And I realize just how beautiful You are
And how great Your affections are for me

Oh, how He loves us so
Oh, how He loves us
How He loves us all

Yeah, He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves us
Oh, how He loves

And we are His portion and He is our prize
Drawn to redemption by the grace in His eyes
If His grace is an ocean, we’re all sinking

And heaven meets earth like an unforeseen kiss
And my heart turns violently inside of my chest
I don’t have time to maintain these regrets

When I think about the way…

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

What Do You Do When...

...the unthinkable happens?

"I will bless the Lord at all times; His praise shall continually be in my mouth"
(Psalm 34:1, NASB)

  • Thank You, Jesus, for two beautiful, healthy children. You are the Giver of Life and they are a great source of joy.
  • Thank You for the opportunity to invest in their little lives. You are the ultimate example of what it is to love Your children.
  • Thank You for the tender heart of a little boy who assembles a care package for Mommy before she heads to the ER. His heart of compassion is a gift from You.
  • Thank You for a loving, devoted husband who walks right beside me during this time. You are growing us together, knitting and strengthening the knot that was formed nearly 8 years ago.
  • Thank You for the amazing and beautiful women you have placed in my life... they are beyond compare. They continually point me to You and You have intertwined our stories.
  • Thank You for the assurance that even though we may not understand Your purpose through this, we can trust You fully!

"And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good,
for those who those who are called according to his purpose."

(Romans 8:28, ESV)

We cannot explain or understand why the Lord would allow us to miscarry again,
but I must cling to this verse knowing that His word is Truth. I can know without a doubt that there is a purpose and a plan that He has in store for us. And right now I really don't want to go down that path, but He is Sovereign and He is good! One day, whether in this life or
the next, I truly believe it will all make sense. We will see His
goodness laid out before us!

"Oh, taste and see that the Lord is good!
Blessed is the man who takes refuge in Him!"

(Psalm 38:4, ESV)

(A big thank you to all who have checked in on us, prayed for us,
offered your help, etc. We are truly blessed!)