Sunday, October 24, 2010


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I have a confession. I cannot rest without feeling guilty. I've been feeling pretty run down lately and when I look around at all that needs to be done or that I would love to accomplish I feel a small panic rising in my chest, thoughts of "I can't do all of this!". I struggle quite often with feeling like the condition of my house/yard/meals etc. is the measuring stick for my worth as a mom/wife. It makes me grouchy and short with my family and then the guilt just increases. I don't know why I have such a difficult time with letting things "go". I'm well aware that life is only about to get crazier, which is good, but a bit scary for me.

After crying out a quick prayer of help I sat down to read my daily reading from "Jesus Calling", by Sarah Young. What the Lord had to say to me just confirms that His timing is perfect and that He loves me even if my house is in shambles.

"Lie down in Green Pastures of Peace. Learn to unwind whenever possible, resting in the Presence of your Shepherd. This electronic age keeps My children "wired" much of the time, too tense to find Me in the midst of their moments, I built into your very being the need for rest. How twisted the world has become when people feel guilty about meeting this basic need! How much time and energy they waste by being always on the go, rather than taking time to seek My direction for their lives.

I have called You to walk with Me down paths of Peace. I want you to blaze a trail for others who desire to live in My peaceful Presence. I have chosen you less for your strengths than for your weaknesses, which amplify your need for Me. Depend on Me more and more, and I will shower Peace on all your paths."

Saturday, October 16, 2010

30 Weeks

A dear friend who recently moved to the West Coast just reminded me that I had not taken any belly pictures of this pregnancy. With Lucas I carefully captured each passing month of my pregnancy. I guess it's true each successive child gets less pictures :)

So Stacie... these are for you:) Our baby will thank you!

(Please pardon the cropping of the pics... I was using the timer on our camera and I couldn't quite get it
positioned right before I finally gave up.)

I think we all have those weeks we're certain we'll never recover from, right? Well, this was one of those weeks. My wagon is draggin'! There are so many things I would love to accomplish (nesting, anyone?), but there is no energy to get it done. Thank goodness the baby won't really care if it gets done or not... and neither will anyone else.

Hope you are all having a great weekend. It's a beauty!

Friday, October 1, 2010

Early Christmas and a Little Mishap

I tell ya, I'm having a hard time making time for this little blog. Between work, homeschooling, yard work, house work, family time, being in my 3rd trimester and trying my darndest to maintain friendships there isn't much time left.

But there are some things that are so cute (to me, anyway) they must be shared....
even if it is over a week later.

We recently decided to take the kids to get bikes. We've given Lucas several opportunities up to this point- even going so far as to take him to try out a bunch of bikes- and he always turned us down. Not this time. So long story short we came home with two smokin' bikes for the kids. They were so excited!

Brian and I decided since it ended up costing more than we anticipated we would consider the bikes a big chunk of their Christmas gift. We will still get them a few things in December, but this takes a lot of shopping pressure off of me. This brings much relief to me since our babe will be joining us during the Christmas season.

Here are a few pictures of the kids first time out:

Aren't they cute? Of course, I think they are absolutely adorable.

The unfortunate part is right after the last picture was taken Lydia cruised on by Daddy, veered left and bit the dust as her training wheels dropped off the pavement. A certain somebody was caught up in the moment of "capturing the moment" and didn't realize Lydia didn't quite have a handle on using her brakes. I felt so bad!!! Her little knees were so scraped up and she seems quite intimidated by her bike now. I am hoping that this will resolve itself or this momma will feel awful.