Sunday, October 24, 2010

Rest


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I have a confession. I cannot rest without feeling guilty. I've been feeling pretty run down lately and when I look around at all that needs to be done or that I would love to accomplish I feel a small panic rising in my chest, thoughts of "I can't do all of this!". I struggle quite often with feeling like the condition of my house/yard/meals etc. is the measuring stick for my worth as a mom/wife. It makes me grouchy and short with my family and then the guilt just increases. I don't know why I have such a difficult time with letting things "go". I'm well aware that life is only about to get crazier, which is good, but a bit scary for me.

After crying out a quick prayer of help I sat down to read my daily reading from "Jesus Calling", by Sarah Young. What the Lord had to say to me just confirms that His timing is perfect and that He loves me even if my house is in shambles.

"Lie down in Green Pastures of Peace. Learn to unwind whenever possible, resting in the Presence of your Shepherd. This electronic age keeps My children "wired" much of the time, too tense to find Me in the midst of their moments, I built into your very being the need for rest. How twisted the world has become when people feel guilty about meeting this basic need! How much time and energy they waste by being always on the go, rather than taking time to seek My direction for their lives.

I have called You to walk with Me down paths of Peace. I want you to blaze a trail for others who desire to live in My peaceful Presence. I have chosen you less for your strengths than for your weaknesses, which amplify your need for Me. Depend on Me more and more, and I will shower Peace on all your paths."

4 comments:

donna said...

Thanks so much for sharing. I think all of us women have a hard time just resting. Thus many of us even when sitting are doing something with our hands, sewing, crocheting. In this, know that you do not struggle alone, you have many sisters with you. Enjoy your day and God bless.

Stacie@HobbitDoor said...

Oh, honey. We are much alike in this. Praying for you. I have a weird week but we should build in some "rest" by chatting on Skype. :)

LanieChuang said...

I've been struggling with this as well, but don't think I would be as sane as I am if I didn't rest. So get your rest now, while you can!

Jenn said...

I know this feeling all too well! Jesus Calling is amazing. So many times the Lord has spoken to me through that book.

I love you and just remember that the Lord definitely doesn't measure our homemaking abilities by our worth.