Ok, how about a little transparency.... I'm having a somewhat melancholy day. The past few days have been rather difficult for Lucas. He seems to be more highly frustrated than normal. Maybe that is why I am more sensitive today. I hate to see him struggle. I would give anything to be able to have a conversation with him, but our days are filled with simple, short requests ( or sometimes loud demands)- no stories, no silly sayings, no inquisitive questions. Brian and I are worried we will never have this wonderful type of interaction with him. I'm sure in time we will. It just feels like we won't. I am praying for patience and the discipline to not compare him to other kiddos his age. Yet, I feel this knot in my stomach and an ache in my heart.
I need to remind myself. We are blessed! At least he is affectionate, loves hugs and kisses and tells me almost everyday now, "Ah- you, momma"- which means I love you. In fact, his favorite way to stall for bedtime is to beg to "snuggo". What a smart kid! It's hard to say no to that! There's nothing better than having a soft, warm little one wrapped up in your arms!
See, I'm starting to feel better already! I think I'll go find someone to snuggle!
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Hope today was a better day!
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